Today Joshua and I tried working on our music project. It didn't go as well as planned since dinner interfered.
I think we're going to try again tomorrow. I wish it were easier to collaberate together. I think we both just have really different tastes in music and different ideas of what we want our sound to be. I know that the final project will be great, especially if he allows me to throw in the odd noises that I would love to. We're both just so damn picky.

We made bagel sandwiches for dinner and watched some music videos with my parents.
Oh, somewhere in there we went to rescued treasures. I found a huge cozy sweater and some broaches. I tried to buy Joshua a bright plaid shirt and a lovely blue blazer, but he said he would rathr go back later. He can be so goofy.

Anyway, now we're just sitting around watching adult swim.
I'm excited to get working again tomorrow.

I'm sorry this is such a boring post. I'm kind of having a cozy day, you know.

JUST SHAKE IT OFF.

bright side

autumn is coming to an end and winter is slyly moving in. this weekend i helped my mum put up our chistmas trees and decorations. the house feels so warm and cozy. i love the holidays so much and cannot wait for thanksgiving.




joshua has been in chicago all weekend and i've been going a little crazy. however, my room is super clean since i've had so much time to kill.
today, i spent the majority of my time laying around or blog surfing. i feel like reading other people's blogs and looking at other's pictures helps me find the beauty in my own life. like, i'm inspired just to look within myself, i guess. blog-reading did make me yearn for the warmth of summer, though. i hate that i always want whatever season it isn't. really though, i am looking forward to the snow a little bit, just not the cold.

also, i was looking for photoshop on my parent's computer today and i stumbled across this picture from when i was fifteen.
it so odd. when i was fifteen and in school, we were often asked where we saw ourselves in five years. five years later and i'm still in the same place, with the same person, in the same house, in the same body, and doing mildly similar things. at least, i kill time the same way. i think i've got to go.



oh, how i miss innocence... and having hair. i'm really going to try to grow it out this time. i've been saying it for years and normally when it gets to my shoulders i just cut it all off again. but not this time! i will be strong and so will my hair.

i should probably go to sleep, but i'm not very tiered and i've been a little freaked out by our house's ghost lately.
last night, for example, i was home alone for the first time in a while. as i sat in silence on the computer in our den, i heard a tapping noise. it sounded as though someone was standing on the opposite side of the wall and tapping their finger sporadically into it. i honestly don't think i've ever experienced anything creepier.

i'm glad that i burned a cd so that when i do go to bed i'll have something to listen to since my ipod refuses to work.

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today i'm babysitting, making a minifoxlady, fixing my mittens, and then going to go see new moon! i'm geeked.

i realized i never posted a single picture from halloween, soo here you go.

today, i'm supposed to be making a skirt out of some extra fabric that i have, but its not quite working out as planned since its pretty much scraps. i just need to figure out a different pattern, really.

all this weekend i hung out with joshua's family from north carolina.
they want us to move down there after winter. i hate to admit it, but i'm terribly frightened of such a big move. i love my family so much and being that far from them would be very difficult for me.
joshua and i had wanted to move over to chicago for a while, but i don't know if that would be a wise decision on our parts. of course, chicago would be fun, but it would not help us move forward in our lives. really, we just want to move to europe, so moving to chicago would just set us back.

anyway, its an absolutely beautiful day outside. i should probably get dressed since i'm still in pjs. and i should definitely get joshua out of bed so we can eat lunch together before he has to go downtown and whatnot.

oh! thats him just now.

i'll never post pictures because i don't have my own computer to upload them to anymore.
i'll never have an interesting friday because my friends can't ever wait anymore.

i have a problem with being too passive.

i'm slowly packing up the things in my room
which i should get back to doing before i have to go to work.
got to get in those two hours per-week!


ha

yesterday was absolutely beautiful. i'll post pictures later.
today, played some discgolf.
making dinner for mum. i'm super hungry and want to start now but she doesn't even get out of work for an hour.

the neighbor just came over and asked me to babysit on wednesday. fantastic. i could use the extra money and her two children are just adorable.

so is their cat, so i hope cat sitting is included.

i almost enjoy not having a computer anymore. i spend far less time doing nothing and much more time giggling and goofing around with joshua. i've kind of been feeling like a child, lately.

the manager at plumbs asked me what i was making for dinner today, since i'm such a regular (like more than once a day). i told her i was making dinner for my mom. she said "is she coming to your house?" oh... ummm "i still live with my mom." "what about.. your boyfriend?" uhh "yeah, him too."

i need to get out. i'm more than meant to be independent.
chicago? most likely.

ryan says we can do films.

yesterday was rather close to perfect.
made eggs in a basket for breakfast for joshua and myself followed by shower and yoga.
after getting ready for the day him and i went to some stores close by to turn in resumes. i'm crossing my fingers that Mango's around the corner from my house will be hiring soon.
when we came home i doodled for a while he read Ham on Rye and then my mum took me to see "Bright Star". I didn't love it for it moved a little too slow for my liking. However, i was moved enough by John Keat's poetry that i begged Josh to pick me up a book of his poetry if they have one at the library. if not, i'll take any poetry book.
after the movie i did some hand sewing since my machine refuses to work. now, my big comfy sweater is not too big.
late in the night we went up to plumbs to get ingredients for home-made hummus. i messed up and added WAY too much lemon, so until we get some more chickpeas it is uneatable.

Today, however, has not been so perfect. Joshua has to go downtown for probation and then is hanging out with Cory all day, leaving me home by myself until i have to go to work. My dad got mad at me for chipping a glass and said i had to replace it.
he also said some other things that mildly stressed me out, but i'm not going to go into that.

Oh, my mom's friend Laurie told me she would help me on my road to college life. fanfuckingtastic. cross your fingers that the world doesn't end, because i'll be really upset if i wasted the last two years of my life going to college instead of living.

i need to go pick my little brother up from school now.
its the weekend. hope for the best.

Very Important To Do:

1. be more optimistic
2. begin each day with bright eyes & yoga
3. never be short tempered with joshua
4. read all books
5. find another job as soon as possible
6. when no. 5 is completed, save all money for college
7. when no. 6 is completed, go to business school
8. never pretend that you don't know what you want
9. never watch television because you are bored
10. appreciate
11. learn french
12. do more laundry
13. be more cleanly
14. smile. be kind
15. when no. 1-15 are completed get a passport
16. when no. 15 is completed move across the atlantic.



my macbook is terribly confused and does not know where its hard-drive is located.
i caught an awful cold in chicago that my body cannot shake off.
i begin tomorrow. this is a new leaf.
i will no longer sit back and let myself do nothing.